Sunday, October 23, 2005

Liquid Kitchen (Upper Thomson one)

Boredom stuck out its fucking ugly head as I paced my way through the week reaching the climax known as "The Saturday Evening". As I was dozing with my notes as pillows, aZ called and I picked up. Lucky I did and Yuda picked me up from Queensway as we proceeded to Liquid Kitchen at Upper Thomson to watch soccer and have a drink or two (or three or four but who's counting?)

The place was pretty good and the beer was good. Only thing was the music was sort of uh.....loud? But ok la. Overall still quite a nice place to chill. But the carbonara spaghetti was sorta too plain. The sauce could've been more special considering it's carbonara. Didn't try the chicky wings but Yuda says Europa one better so trust him bah.

After the match we went to Seah's house to watch a Korean horror show. Felt that the plot was sort of jumping around. Like it had been cut in various places or something. Reached home and voila! DOTA beckons!!

Only 1 game but it satisfied my KS instincts of waiting for the last hit and lucent beaming their gluteus maximus to never-never land. But Weikin and Seah were the ones doing the most killing. Good game though since I hadn't played in a while.

Anyway it's 6 in the morn on Sunday and there's a footie match later at Tampines(Foong must be damn happy!). So it's time to catch forty winks or so. Update again when something or another comes up. Next time come to the Liquid Kitchen at River Valley Rd. Won't get lost so easily mah. And nearer for some of us too. SELFISH KERK!!!

Monday, October 17, 2005

Weekend at the chalet

Met Kevin on Friday and we went down to Brenda's chalet at East Coast Costa Sands. Reached there and we played mahjong,card games,chatted and watched TV. First night there got me, Kevin, Brenda, Xiao yan, Brenda's bf, Brenda's bro, Brenda's bro's gf and Brenda's aged 13 cousin. We even played Jenga using mahjong tiles!! We stacked all the tiles in a pyramid triangle style and prodded the tiles out of the triangle. Very fun and Brenda took lots of photos of the funny looking stack of tiles during the games.

Next day Yuehong,Xinyee,Arjun and Brenda's multitude of friends and family came to celebrate with her. Lots and lotsa photos taken. The cake was wicked! Chocolate with a wafer layer at the bottom!! And Yuehong won at mahjong!! 'Cause according to others he is just about as proficient at mahjong as uh......me? Which isn't really saying a lot. Haha.

Too many things happened at the chalet to write down but they'll probably stay in my memory for a loooooooong time. Like how Xiaoyan and Kevin exchanged "Cold" jokes while we were sitting on a bench looking out into the sea. Or how I got hit twice by Brenda's 13 yr old cousin . Or being undefeated at a guess-the-numbers card game.

Anyway, it was all great fun! Especially since I hadn't seen Kevin,Brenda and Xiaoyan for nearly 3 years. That's right! 3 years!!! Well, we'll probably meet up again when Chong Hsien comes back. So it won't end up another 3 freaking years before we catch up.

Caught Deuce Bigalow on Sunday late afternoon. Quite a funny show but I think they filled it with too many cheap jokes that go by too fast. But still made me laugh out loud. So this was a really fun weekend. Really glad to spend time with friends especially those whom I've sort of neglected.

Can't wait for Brenda to send me the photos!

Friday, October 07, 2005

In Memory Of

Thank you, Miss you, Love you, Sorry and Goodbye.

So many words that I want to say. But you're not there to hear them anymore. I knew it was coming but still I didn't cherish you as much as I could have. Will you forgive me wherever you are?

Today was a blur. I woke up and you were sleeping right beside me as always. I didn't realise anything was wrong 'cause you seemed to be always so tired and sleepy nowadays. Only when I tried to wake you up did I realise that you were cold.

I felt for your heartbeat but it wasn't there. I cried and shook you. But you were gone. Mom came in and she knew. I didn't want to let go of you. I hope that you went peacefully and it didn't hurt. But I'll never know.

My old friend. Your name wasn't really a name and I apologise for that. "Oei!" was what I called you and you responded everytime. You kept me company through the best times and the worst. You liked to watch TV on the sofa with me. You danced to the music I played from the com.

I loved you best 'cause you never barked like other dogs. They say that you were mute. But I knew it was 'cause you loved me too and didn't want to scare me with your bark.

My dear friend. Is it true that all dogs go to heaven? Perhaps If I'm good enough, I'll see you there in the end. And we can do all the things we used to do. And slack together too.

I'll always remember your favourite song, "You are my Sunshine". I'm listening to it now and I'm tearing again. Such a happy tune but such sad lyrics. They reflect my feelings now.

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night, dear,
As I was sleeping
I dreamt I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.


I miss your company.
I miss your non-barking.
I miss you.
I'll always remember you.
Please, please don't forget the little boy who always called you "Oei!"

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

I'm Awake

First of all, I'd like to thank Ms Fish. She kept me company the whole night/morning as I put her on repeat mode ad infinitum. Her songs are seriously evergreen.

Been talking to a few close friends on the topic of love. 'Cause I'm as sensitive as a porn star's dick after a hard day's work when it comes to love. Sure I've had so many crushes. But I've usually never made any real effort to 'chase' them. Sometimes I never ever tell them. 'Cause to me, our friendship is more precious? Is that a loser mentality?

I'm just speaking from personal experience. When I know that a girl has a crush on me but I don't like her, I will usually try to distance myself away from her. It's embarrassing and awkward. Like when she calls you, asks you out, sms you so often but you don't know how to hint to her that, "Uh...I think we should stay as friends?" So I'll always distance myself away. A fledgling friendship can go kaboom just like that.

I don't want that to happen to me. Ever. I don't mind just staying friends and not moving on to the next stage. I've made a few close 姐妹 this way. I'll always leave a sweet spot for them in my heart. Kinda like a secret that only I know. I've shared my secret with a few of them. Usually they're like "Huh, really ar? You used to like me? Haha...I never knew! Now we 姐妹 liao then you say!"

I've never once regretted any of my decisions. 'Cause these 姐妹 turn out to be some of the most wonderful and supportive friends I have. Even though I haven't seen some of them for some time, I know that they will be there when I need them.

But if you're reading this and you're one of my 姐妹, there's no need to be paranoid over whether I've had a crush on you before. KerkieMonster got standards one! You think you're really that hot meh? Haha...I don't have THAT many crushes la. And since we're 姐妹 already, means that I don't/can't have the hots for you anymore. That'd be like incest! Yucks!

Oh yeah, forgot to mention this 2 coming Saturdays will be action packed! This Sat got lunch with Daphne for her birthday then something special at night. Next Friday is mahjong with Brenda,Yan,Kevin and Des followed by BBQ at Saturday night for Brenda's birthday. Haven't seen Brenda,Yan,Kevin in years!! And Des in months!!

So that's that. Another pack of Famous Amos cookies from 7-11 expended while typing this superbly incoherent and meaningless entry. So what am I doing waking up so early? Actually, I didn't sleep. Was studying 'till 5am and can't get to sleep now. It's like when you starve too often, your appetite gets smaller.

Speaking of starving and appetite, I need to gain weight like seriously. It's quite sick when you can see your own heartbeat. Got to stop wasting food and eat more carbo and sweet stuff. My bad habit of wasting food started in JC. Like buying a bowl of noodles at the school canteen. Once I sit down and look at the bowl of noodles my appetite goes down the drain. It's akin to being Anorexic except I don't want to be thin and I don't throw up what I eat.

It's all in the brain I guess. Just got to tell myself to eat eat eat eat eat. Hope everything goes fine and a brand-new KerkieMonster comes out of the oven a few months later. Going to eat my breakfast already. Haven't had breakfast since.....I can't even remember the last time I had breakfast. Haha! 'Nuff said. The Hunger beckons.

In the words of Furion the Prophet, "I'm awake, I'm awake."