In Memory Of

Thank you, Miss you, Love you, Sorry and Goodbye.

So many words that I want to say. But you're not there to hear them anymore. I knew it was coming but still I didn't cherish you as much as I could have. Will you forgive me wherever you are?

Today was a blur. I woke up and you were sleeping right beside me as always. I didn't realise anything was wrong 'cause you seemed to be always so tired and sleepy nowadays. Only when I tried to wake you up did I realise that you were cold.

I felt for your heartbeat but it wasn't there. I cried and shook you. But you were gone. Mom came in and she knew. I didn't want to let go of you. I hope that you went peacefully and it didn't hurt. But I'll never know.

My old friend. Your name wasn't really a name and I apologise for that. "Oei!" was what I called you and you responded everytime. You kept me company through the best times and the worst. You liked to watch TV on the sofa with me. You danced to the music I played from the com.

I loved you best 'cause you never barked like other dogs. They say that you were mute. But I knew it was 'cause you loved me too and didn't want to scare me with your bark.

My dear friend. Is it true that all dogs go to heaven? Perhaps If I'm good enough, I'll see you there in the end. And we can do all the things we used to do. And slack together too.

I'll always remember your favourite song, "You are my Sunshine". I'm listening to it now and I'm tearing again. Such a happy tune but such sad lyrics. They reflect my feelings now.

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night, dear,
As I was sleeping
I dreamt I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried.

You are my sunshine,
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

I miss your company.
I miss your non-barking.
I miss you.
I'll always remember you.
Please, please don't forget the little boy who always called you "Oei!"